What that guy wandering around the library last night was thinking...

I went to the library tonight without remembering my library card. I took it out of my wallet a few weeks ago during a routine wallet maintenance efficiency checkup.  And it never made it back in.  I don't know if i could have gotten another one while I was at the library.  I was afraid to ask.  The librarians are kind of mean at my library.  The library was filled with people.  Many of them were loud.  I was scared.  So, I found a piece of paper (a job search pamphlet) to write down all of the library materials I would check out if i could.  I tried to find a seat.  But almost all the seats were taken - except the ones under the "teen area" sign - and I didn't want to sit right next to anyone in the other areas, because they all seemed to be coughing and sneezing and breathing and i was repulsed and afraid.  As I walked around the books and tables and computer terminals trying to identify an acceptable seat, i noticed the people (librarians and patrons) were all starting to watch me. I think they think I am up to something.  So I panicked and sat in the first open seat and I started writing this and now i am afraid to stop writing because I think they are still watching me and I am very uncomfortable with everyone being aware of me now. I must continue to look busy.  I hope no one cares that I took this job pamphlet to write on. I am so tired.  I want to put my head down and close my eyes until it all feels better, but, of course, I can't do that, that will just make it worse.  I better just leave and next time remember my library card.  I hope that helps.